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feel like a zombie

October 14th, 2015 at 10:40 am

My intense work craziness is over and I am so relieved. I organized and executed four large events last Thursday and Friday, all of which were successful and well attended. Yay me! Definitely a few glitches here and there, but for the most part, things ran smoothly and the powers that be seemed satisfied.

I was exhausted all weekend and pretty much laid around sleeping and binge watching TV shows on a laptop. I did get outside for long fall foliage walks on Saturday and Sunday with my neighbor/friend A and attended part of an outdoor concert on Saturday evening with my friend M. The music was festive and fun and I jumped around and danced for an hour. A great stress reliever!

I then found out on Monday that my mom does indeed have cancer and is looking for an oncologist and surgeon as the first step. I believe she has an appointment with a doctor on Monday, so that's a start. I'm very sad and upset by the news, and I will be there to support her no matter what the outcome. Now that my big events are over, my work schedule will be much more flexible and I may even be able to visit my mom and work remotely. Thankfully, my boss is a breast cancer survivor and is very understanding.

I thought I would have more energy this weekend to get back to my neglected life, but I was just too wiped out from work and my mom's news and I still am. My house is a disaster and I hope to straighten up and clean in increments this week because I don't have the energy to tackle it all at once. I haven't made much headway the past two days, though. I slept in today and didn't get to work until 11:00a.

Thankfully I didn't resort to mindless spending during my busy time. I bought one take out lunch last week ($6.55 for Chinese food - totally worth it!) and on Sunday I succumbed to a craving for Cape Cod potato chips and a half gallon of local chocolate milk ($5.98 total). I bought healthy food at the market on Sunday ($31.29, including $10 olive oil), but haven't gotten it together to make lunches for this week yet. My boss treated me to lunch at an Indian restaurant on Monday and I had a tiny leftover wonton soup in the work fridge that I ate yesterday. I then had a hair appointment at 4:00 and my stylist, who is a generous and nurturing woman, made me two bags of microwaved popcorn because I was hungry and gave me an extra-long head massage because I was stressed! Hair coloring total was $105 ($85 + 20 tip). I just had Chinese takeout today for lunch ($6.55). Not ideal, but it is what it is, as they say. Maybe I'll get a grip this evening and make salads for Thursday and Friday lunches.

I weighed myself on Monday and seem to have maintained my recent weight loss, but I will need to get back on course soon or the downward spiral will begin again and I will gain it all back.

I haven't kept up with YNAB, but will hopefully get reacquainted this weekend.

Guess I should motivate and get some work done today! The fall colors are spectacular in my area, so I'm trying to enjoy those as much as possible.

8 Responses to “feel like a zombie”

  1. creditcardfree Says:

    I've had those zombie moments. Good luck getting back on track!

  2. LivingAlmostLarge Says:

    Sorry to hear about your mom. Sometimes it's about moving forward however you get there.

  3. My English Castle Says:

    Sorry too, to hear about your mom. Wishing both of you strength and energy!

  4. CB in the City Says:

    I'm so sorry about your mom, but what a blessing you will be for her as she goes through this. Stay focused on how much your support will mean to her.

  5. snafu Says:

    I'm so sorry about mom's news. I hope the oncologist will give her very specific information like the size, type, treatment choices and those favoured as those are very important details. She needs to ask about lymp node involvement and keep a very positive attitude. I hope it's a simple lumpectomy with clear margins. Recovery is straight forward even if there is follow treatment. As a survivor, I'd like to offer reassurance that they've made progress in treatment and control. Mom will likely join a new sisterhood.

  6. frugaltexan75 Says:

    I too am sorry about the news about your mom. That kind of news definitely can be stressful.

  7. VS_ozgirl Says:

    Very sorry to hear about your mom Frown. And hoping you start to feel normal very soon!

  8. monkeymama Says:

    I am very sorry to hear about your mom.

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